Posts

My Body, My Story: Reclaiming the Narrative of a Life Shaped by Hemophilia

Image
The room is silent, but my body is screaming. To the outside world, I am sitting still. I look "fine," perhaps a little tired. But inside my right knee - my "target joint" - a war is raging. It starts not with pain, but with a tingle . A specific, bubbling warmth that every hemophiliac knows better than their own mother's voice. It is the starting point of a bleed. I am a severe hemophiliac. My blood lacks the clotting factor (Factor VIII) needed to clot. But that clinical definition is sterile; it doesn't capture the mess, the fear, or the cost. For years, I let this condition write my story. It wrote chapters of disability, of lost opportunities, and of financial ruin. Today, I am taking the pen back. But to do that, I have to tell you the truth about the hidden causes of our pain—the things the medical textbooks don't quite explain. 1. The Rust in the Machine (The Biological Betrayal) Most people think hemophilia is just about "bleeding longer...

The Things We Don't See: Understanding the Invisible Scars of a Lifetime with Hemophilia

Image
Man, living with hemophilia? It's not just about the bleeds you can actually see, you know? It's this constant knot of worry in your stomach, the ache that just hangs around long after a bruise has faded, and that nagging fear of what's gonna happen next. We talk a lot about the physical stuff, and yeah, that's huge. But what about all the emotional weight? The invisible scars that just build up over a lifetime? Those are the things that really shape us, the quiet battles we're fighting every single day. From when we were kids, we learned to just deal with it, to push through. But the weight of this condition? It's always there, like a shadow right beside us. It messes with our relationships, our jobs, even how we see ourselves. It's a journey that's full of unknowns, but honestly, it's also shown us how incredibly tough we can be. We find so much strength in our community, in our families, and in that stubborn spirit we've got. Still, those in...

The Haemophilia Warrior’s Quiet Strength: Redefining Resilience Beyond the Headlines

Image
There is a kind of strength that doesn't make headlines. It doesn't come with gold medals, standing ovations, or viral news stories. It is the quiet, relentless strength you show when you wake up every morning knowing the day ahead will be a battle, yet you get up anyway. It is the strength of living with haemophilia—not just surviving it, but truly, vibrantly living. Lately, I have been thinking deeply about what resilience really means for our community. It has become such a buzzword in our culture, hasn't it? We are constantly told to "bounce back," "stay positive," or "look on the bright side." But that isn't what resilience looks like when you are managing a chronic condition day in and day out. Real resilience is so much deeper, grittier, and more beautiful than a motivational poster. Resilience: Weaving the Struggle into the Story For those of us in the bleeding disorders community, resilience isn't about bouncing back to some ...